In Searching For An Answer...

2012-01-02T12:16:00.002+08:00

decided to come back blogging~ new year with new resolution! this year i just wish i can do well on my studies, get a psVITA, 4 figurines and for everyone's safety and happiness! well i dont really have much to post but now i am officially a christian, being that meaning if i were to find a partner it would be best if she was a christian as well! hmmm no time to think about that now, just concentrate on my current studies ! well gotta go will blog again tonight or tomorrow either way! thank god and thank jesus for what they did even though i didn't deserved it i adore you and i thank you! =)

2011-10-19T19:31:00.003+08:00

so long since i update my rusty blog! well nothing much to post school was fine, everything was okay, did some thinking too, about the past about you, finally i came to a conclusion, am i really that guy who could spend my entire life with you i asked myself, even when you don't reply my messages... i don't really understand why.... but than since i asked myself that question only than i came to realise.... i am the only one who seems to try and keep the sms going... and it's just me here i feel that whenever you are free, than will you message me... all my friends told me... you are worth more than that.... you can get a better partner... can i really? i done enough and i had enough of this torment.... so i am going to let you decide and if i am not the one for you... it's fine i will let go....

2011-10-03T21:58:00.003+08:00

well blog has changed since so long sinc ei last post huh? haha well been busy lately and i am going back school today until december 10th that will be my next holiday! been sad lately got to know i only scored 2.5 gpa for my first semester! well i ain't gonna let that affect me gonna try aim higher than i would be able to go to a decent poly!!!!!sigh now my dad is also using fb to talk to me should avoid saying nonsense well not to throw his face,gonna aim high this term! scoring 4gpa for current!

Ai Kotoba [Shōnen-T][fanmade cover][english sub]

2011-09-16T19:39:00.000+08:00

found this while i am surfing youtube and one thing struck my mind, when i am able to play my keyboard piano i will be doing covers like this! for sure, sigh right now i am thinking what are you doing, have you eaten, and how are you now? even if i can help just alittle i would do so, staying single all this time it has always been for you, no one else, almost 3 years now i am single all for you

2011-09-12T20:11:00.002+08:00

back to blogging suprise suprise~ been so long since i last post eh? well alot of things came up and i decided to have a time of my own and just let loose and forget stuffs, i am currently workin now, what a way to spend your 1st day of holiday pft at work >.> well can't complain since i need money =p i really hate people who makes last minute reservations! it's like you can go home early and when you pick up the phone a customer says i want to come over at a later time and you got to stay on just because of this particular group of people, sigh can't complain since i need money as well, westlife is comin to sg, wish i could go sigh, but i go things to attend to, this is once in a life time choice and yet i can't go it's really frustrating, well i'm off i hope i can end early today just wanna go home and rest! reality is such a bitch!

2011-08-18T22:46:00.002+08:00

back from work, let off early today, i should control my money more now, always having not enough is a bad sign.... well now that i know money is not easily earned i respect more to my dad for what he has done for the family, all these years thanks dad, we won't be able to get this far without your support.... recently alot has happened well no one wanted this to happen, we may lose faith at times against one another but never lose faith in yourself.... well alot of test are coming up! make sure to conquer them one by one slowly i am sure i will be able to do it if i try!

2011-08-09T11:17:00.002+08:00

been awhile since i post, never thought i would be back to be honest, after all i have been through, seems like nothing's changed, i am still the same old me, and i suppose you have already moved on, since i gave you back the necklace and asked you to give it to someone better, well that guy sure will be very lucky, after all, your target is uni, and how can a low life like an ITE student match up with a uni student it is just like a fairy tale that will not come true.... i just hope that somehow you will notice me again.... i really didn't mean to hurt you the last time... i just for that moment a childish side of me thought that you had less time for me since it was your 'o' levels and so i left you without knowing that you actually took out time from your busy schedule just to be with me for that 3 hours, just being there and see you smile and when you are going home i would always send you off at the MRT/Bus Stop.... i still remember our first date at AMK hub and your the first girl i ever held hands with.... without knowing my heart was suppose to be loyal only to you, but than... i turned to another girl..... thinking that you had your 'o' lvls and having less time for me, that was a selfish thought at that time i never really thought much about what you are going through, i'm sorry and i guess you have already moved on.....

2011-07-15T22:21:00.002+08:00

looks like you have finally say out the truth, the truth of how you felt, you know.... i always thought it is impossible that you could forget each and every moment we spent together smiling and always being together, i know i am in the wrong for asking for break up whenever a problem comes up but if given a chance i would change that... right now i know how you feel towards me, but i still have some things i wanna clarify, i still want to know why you did all those stuffs, why did you hurt yourself so much when you know that u aren't with the person you love at all and avoiding him? things like how you are able to keep on going even after suffering so much? i want to be with you... i really do but i want to know what happened first.... and if it requires waiting when you are gone.... and it is dumb to wait for you or stupid .... than i want to be dumb and stupid for life for you...

2011-07-11T18:25:00.003+08:00

sometimes we feel so confident... as if we know someone who really understands us, a place where we can share our thoughts and always laugh together i didnt want to believe that happiness only can be kept for awhile and enjoy it and treasure as much as you can before it last.... but now i find it true.... i need to start treasuring the present before it becomes a thing in a past.... always thought that someone will be there and is the only person who understands me... but than.... sigh.... i guess i was wrong.... indeed i have no one to turn to now.... so i will just have to keep on walking... no use standing still right?

2011-07-10T19:40:00.002+08:00

new term starts tmr, not really a good term to leave off this year, alot unexpected things slowly happened, ultimately it's a test of the bonb between a person and how he/she will hold on until it breaks, after breaking even if it is mend..... the scar will always be there to remind us of the past what we did and what happened that day, i don't ever want to experience that again... so many things needs to be answered... like what if i didnt do this in the past? what would be the present now? will it still be like this? so many questions so little answers , well gonna talk to him tmr hear him out that's all i can do anw... in the future promises that aren't kept i won't be mattering with it anymore just like what a friend told me.... when someone promises right at that moment don't take his answers for what he is just keep what you think is right and keep on walking never stop

2011-07-05T00:52:00.003+08:00

Well might as well post something, feeling alright lately, things i have done things i think are right, i won't regret doing it, hate me.... do what you guys want... what i do for this group is what i think is straight forward and i wanna help, but if my help isn't needed and my help becomes something irritating, i might as well stop, in the future i would just reply 'mmm, yeah, uh, idk, idc, don't ask me amd ,most of all 'not my concern' i would isolate myself, i would keep everything to myself, that's what i have always and will always be, than again gotta thank nixon for comin out with me on a day i felt down, at least i could talk to him and have him accompany me, countless times i am always helped by kenneth and nixon and abbas, i don't really know how to repay them but i suppose being by their side is more than enough i think, few people i could rely on.... these few people are the only key to my life.... without them my life would mean nothing but just a blank piece of paper... well that's all i could say, i just hope that there won't be a day i would lose again.. especially someone i cherish and treasure....

please let go of this hand of mine
i'm happy we met
thank you good bye
i can't say a single word
i will cry for just this momment
there's no need for words anymore

by this time of the year
what sort of me would exist
what sort of you would i wonder.....

2011-06-22T13:44:00.003+08:00

well for those who are able to find me grats to you, those who aren't able to, that's the way it will always be, guess people who know me should be able to guess why i cherish 'snow-rain-memories' now that i think about it, after hearing afew songs i finally know what i did wrong and how much i hurt my 1st ex, having betrayed, left alone empty handed and no one to rely on, i guess that is how she felt cause that is what i felt after what my 2nd ex did to me, what goes around comes around i suppose, i hope that my 1st ex will find someone suitable more loving and more loyal guy to be in my place, i shouldnt have made that move, well it is all done now, we cant rewind time nor take back what we had done, through my whole life , i learnt to hurt,be hurt,lose a best friend,back stabbed, betrayed,lied to, i guess that is how humans are miserable creatures.....

｢Moetron-Subs｣ Hatsune Miku - "When the First Love Ends" (English Subs)

2011-06-21T10:49:00.000+08:00

2011-06-11T21:34:00.002+08:00

well seems like i should start anew now~ i wanna know what will become of me, since i didnt go for the op and it meant i need to do something, but i need to find out what... well for now everything is starting to stabalise, also i got to confess, i just couldnt wait anymore, now... i only hope that i will get an answer soon

2011-05-31T23:30:00.002+08:00

this is the very last post i will be placing here! thanks! wether i pass or not for tomorrow i am gonna start a new life, a new me, gonna start deleting my fb account,msn etc etc and create new ones if i passed tomorrow.... those who manage to find me it is destinied and for those who fails to do so, it is meant to be might consider changing hp number as well, so yeah readers out there who know me in real, you can easily find me but well i won't be giving out any info if you want it than earn it.... starting from step 1 all over again..... also... i won't be deleting this blog after all i am gonna leave it here and rust so that one day when i come back when i am more mature i would laugh my ass off looking at how immature i was before!

2011-05-30T22:22:00.002+08:00

last 2nd day of posting now, i hope readers who came into my blog every now and than are prepared to delete this website this blog already, i will be deleting this blog tomorrow night at 12 midnight, a long journey it has been, memories dear,hated,happy and sad many other emotions are stored inside here, thanks to everyone and everything i have i now find myself fortunate to meet you guys! really i am thanks...

2011-05-28T19:53:00.002+08:00

was busy the last 4 days so i didnt get to post mm well, nothing much anyways so much for dooms day huh? lol stupid old man with his stupid beliefs, maybe its the end of the world for him only >.> . for now i know one thing, that i won't be doing well for my wireless course, thanks to my lecturer, i don't mind repeating but i just don't wanna disappoint my dad, he has high hope for me and i really wish to make him happy, but how can i tell him i wanna drop out and wait for another chance? i don't wanna see him lose hope on me too.... after all i am fighting this battle now... i want to be able to see and hear once more, i want to make a miracle happen, but i have to accept the truth that i might not be able to see nor hear anymore as well, which ever happens, it happens for a reason.... right? well wednesday is gonna decide it all and i wish to thank all the people who i known all this while... people who i loved and people who i hate treasure and dislike... because of what you guys taught me i am the way i am now.... and whatever the outcome i am gonna renew myself after the operation.... i won't be the way i am anymore so i am gonna delete this blog soon.... my msn my facebook everything.... and start anew

2011-05-23T23:03:00.002+08:00

school was mmm ok, nothing special except for the fact i am starting to get serious on studies now, don't need help from any teacher i am on my own~ though sometimes i really gotta ask them try not to solve it by myself would be a greater sense of achivement, i hope that i am able to get into poly i really do whatever poly as long as i am acceptable than i will do my best! well what more can i post? ever since i got this disease it feels like a torment, i really would wana know what my outcome would be... if its for breaking up with my first ex i had already suffered so much already.... isn't it time that the torture stop? i really don't know.... well i hope somehow all the things that are happenin now will somehow come to an end..... good or bad i gotta face it...

2011-05-21T11:45:00.002+08:00

i really wanna know..... what am i to you? i am already left wwith 11 days, whenever you needed me i would try my best to be there for you, after cheering you up, you always leave me with a smile with your face, nothing more nothing less, so am i just going to be someone who cheers you up whenever your down? cause if that's the case i will leave you.... i will vanish like i did to all other people, i won't text,msn,call or talk to you in real life.... i don't like the feeling of being taken for granted.... i don't like it whenever i try to convience you to leave him, he is the ultimate mistake you made trust me.... not like ur gonna read what i type here, u ain't got my link to this blog, how dumb can you get? if u ain't happy always complaining about him. than the answer is fucking simple LEAVE HIM! he can't make you happy LEAVE HIM! i am sure there are many more people out there who are better than him trust me i know that, if things are going to end up this way... MAKE NO MISTAKE! the next time you ask to see me i won't be there no more..... especially when i am blind and deaf.....

初音ミク - From Y to Y PV

2011-05-19T17:09:00.003+08:00

alright i shall try subbing this XD

you turned your back on me and started walking
we didnt even exchange a single word
i felt my heart sway and couldnt help but whisper
'Don't go, Don't leave me hey...' like a child

I turned my back on you and just started walking
i have to go before i start to shed a tear
i lied that happiness is just an illusion
and i let go of our dream and our future

future...(x4)

The wish that i can't get back....

wish (x4)

This one bedroom apartment feels just alittle bigger
like pulling the space in my heart wider
each second, every minute keeps getting longer and lonelier
if only i could spend them with you....

am i stupid to even dream? is the world that terrible to me?
just a hint of a lie will make you start to cry
your teardrops fall like rain from your sky to my ground
i've made so many mistakes that i couldn't count
One is when i touched your hands
and when i tried to live and breathe gently beside you

I will never forget the pain of being alone
so please let me stay in your memories and rest quietly for awhile....

Wouldn't it be great,if we see each other with unchanged feelings
i will hold your hand and you will hold mine
but until than 'goodbye'

[romeo and cinderella]

Don't let my love become a tragedy like juliet
Take me out from here
That's the kind of feeling

Papa and mama please go to sleep good night and wish that you have a good dream
It's the time that adults went to bed
the enchanted caramel that'll make you choke
i cross my legs shyly
how far will we go tonight?
don't bite me
be gentle
i don't like bitter things yet
probably because i always ate those sweet that mother made
if something is unknown
it's normal to be curious
Show me everything
only you'll see my .....

i always longed to be just like cinderella
i'll run away with just my uniform
magic please stop the time
before the villains stop us
i want to run away just like juliet
but don't call me by that name
that's right, we will be together
or it would be too boring
honey, are you going to live with me?

the eyelashes that became longer because of the mascara
i promise that i'll be a good girl tomorrow
so please forgive me for now

the borderline of the black lace
no one is securing it tonight
how far can we go tonight?
so hard that i bit you
so hard that it hurts
i'm in love with you
but dad seems to hate you, though
you gave me a hand holding a collar for me
take me away my romeo
so far that the bad people can't reach us

the bell sounded just like the story cinderella
i'll leave my glass shoe
so find me soon
before the bad memories haunt me
surely she did the same thing
she lied that she dropped it accidentally
yes i'll do the same
i want to be loved more
see, i'm right here

Why don't you try looking into my heart?
it is filled with desire and things you want right?
but it still not enough, stuff more into it
so hard that you cannot be here anymore....
but that wouldn't make any sense!

Happiness seems to be stored in a smaller box rather than a bigger one,
what should i do?something must be done
or i'll let you down
but living their usual and greedy life are mama and papa
yes, i'll accept my nature
'the golden axe is what i've lost'
cinderella,who had told too many lies
is said to be eaten by the wolves
what should i do? something must be done
or else i'll be eaten as well
please save me before that happens

by the way i sub this because i want to and its not accurate~~~ i am not subbing because its for anyone don't get me wrong here, damn i would bleed so badly from my nose if a girl is like that in front of me just liek romeo and cinderella o.o

2011-05-18T18:09:00.002+08:00

here i am workin again, its kinda boring when you don't have a single customer and just feel like putting a cyborg version of you tend to the shop until someone appears, boring to the max! cmon!!!! lemme do smth i already finished chapter 1 of my book no more or else i'm so gonna explode promised myself that i would complete a chapter a day even if it is holidays total of 11 chapters and inimum 30 pages to learn meaning~~~ i still got time till the final year to take down important notes! sigh why did everything had to come down to this? it's kinda sucky knowing that judgement day comes soon and you can only wait nothing else and expects nothing but only hope for the best.... no one would know that kinda feeling.... no one.... for all i know i won't be hearing or seeing anymore if that were to happen i would close the book of my life on the last chapter if it succeed i would start a new book a new life and i would start a new self i would just throw away the me now who is weak, who is nothing but a piece of trash as what everyone says....

2011-05-17T23:20:00.002+08:00

lol i am always the bad guy aren't i? well i am used to being called a 'bad guy' i do mean stuffs, i don't deserve a friend like you, so yeah i ain't gonna be part of ur life anymore i will just vanish~ into thin air *snap* just like that the next time we meet, we will be total strangers~ as what i know 'lesser friends, lesser troubles' good luck with your future and thanks for being part of my life, since i am going to be deaf and blind soon i suppose friends leaving me is a good option, after all no one would want to be with a blind and deaf guy, yeah~~~ i give excuses and reasons and ALWAYS lie mm hmmm yeah i do, WELL HERE IS A PIECE OF NEWS i said CLEARLY! i won't be a 100% sure i would meet you and i said you could go out without me CLEARLY! read that its in your inbox that i messaged so fine~~ i make up excuses~ and reasons ALOT of it and i also LIE ok~~~ ur the boss i will step out from your life, i won't disturb nor talk to you since i am that kind of person you think i am, see ya! lesser friends! lesser troubles! waiting for the day when no one would be there for me anymore! such a good life i am having A VERY GOOD LIFE! since my story is about to end i suppose it would be a bad ending now eh? hope ur happy!

2011-05-14T18:02:00.002+08:00

maybe i shouldn't have done that step right? well its already done can't be helped, with that i think i would be fine now, this might conclude the last chapter of my life.... want to thanks all the people who came into my life.... if it weren't for you guys i wouldnt have made it this far, thank you.... even if i regretted... i would be regretting not being able to grant what my family want to see me become... that's all there is to it.....

2011-05-12T22:10:00.000+08:00

well nothing much happened, today lesssons were normal i can feel that the friends are starting to drift apart.... i won't list out names, anyways i am also tired to say it out... i just hope you will be happy with your new group of friends, thats all.

well tomorrow is a big day for me about to do something crazy! and i know i would be superbly tired after work so gotta rest early tonight.... nights all!

By2 我知道MV大首播(清晰版)

2011-05-12T19:54:00.000+08:00

Tank - Ru Guo Wo Bian Cheng Hui Yi

2011-05-12T19:51:00.000+08:00

2011-05-10T23:03:00.002+08:00

well here i am back to blogging, just back from work lucky for me closed down early tonight, and i actually studied there, supirse? well there is like actually nothing to do there really, very less customers during the weekdays, so yeah made myself a cup of hot chocolate and extra chocolate toppings XD a taste of being 'freed' also recently i bought this necklace having a blue design its quite nice and it represents the soul of a person, and declared 'if you ever have a partner you want to be with, this little thing here give it to your partner it would represent you being there when you aren't' mmmm well i didnt give much attention to that so i bought it it looks nice anyways XD well i guess that it for tonight nothing much to post, guess i will be needing to get into studying mode starting from tomrrow at work, high lighter!!! i am gonna get you tomorrow~!

2011-05-08T20:22:00.003+08:00

been working late night last 2 days till 3am i am suprised i can manage it! yesterday made cuppuchino ahahaha forgot to add sugar my face was totally priceless when i drank it ROFL its like drinking beer except this is coffee o.o not particularly a drinker here btw o.o but seriously when i am drunk i can say anything out even things i don't wish to say, i remembered going to mj's chalet and yeah i was down and i drank just 1 can and i fell drunk darn! i told everybody there my secret who i still love etc etc and when i awoke i was being teased on >.> well that only happen once in a blue moon guys! no more beers for me! so yeah worked a total of 20++ hours now and i earned 100 over dollars considering that this is actually a slacking job getting 100 dollars for 3 days is already a big deal for me, ok so for those who want to see how i serve people i would suggest that you come over to pitstop whenever i am at work hahaha, i think you guys will laugh your ass off! seeing me speaking formal and serving drinks urgh! well its my job anyways can't afford to lose it! a job that will lead to my future as well! wanna open a cafe!!! well ok i am gonna sign off here nothing else to post mmmm well there is just one....perhaps asking you when its like 15th? or middle of the month

i will be glad if i could go out and have a talk with you just 20 mins max won't hold you back, cause.... if i don't i am afraid i will never have the chance to ever see nor hear you again..... not because i am leaving... but because of something else....

Clannad - Nagisa Warm Piano Version

2011-05-07T16:05:00.001+08:00

if i were to get married i would want this as the slide show ost!!! damn! its nice!

Tomoya's Proposal to Nagisa - Clannad ~After Story~ HQ

2011-05-07T13:42:00.000+08:00

somehow i just cant stop watching clannad....

Clannad ~After Story~ Tomoya apologizes Most dramatic scene in anime! HQ

2011-05-07T13:29:00.000+08:00

2011-05-07T12:02:00.002+08:00

not being able to blog last night, knocked off at work at 3am for the first time, sure it was tiring but at the same time leart how to make coffee, cappuccino, moccha surely it was good on my first try since my guide was a worker from starbucks XD had afew tries but yeah i was finally able to get it! lols though i would say i will be able to draw things while making the bubble like a heart or bear head etc etc, that would take years of training i think... so anyways yeah i worked from 6pm-3am from friday-saturday and the rest of the days from 6pm-11pm now that's what i call a unique job, get to relax do your own stuff during most of the the time and get to use your own laptop surfing the net haha i might actually found a place where my interest is at after walking and deciding for so long! i might actually want to open a cafe!! but first -.- need to go get the cert and learn every single thing about chief etc etc i might have taken the wrong step once, but that doesn't mean it is too late to learn again hehe! i mean being my own boss is a good idea as well! along with a beautiful assistance wife in the future perhaps =p

2011-05-04T22:48:00.002+08:00

back from work, thankfully close early got to meet new recruit who started working today, and that makes me the senior! XD but still she does learn fast! first day and she already learnt how to operate almost everything, but for me it took me 2 days @.@ now i see the difference between poly and ITE student, haha chatted with her as if i knew her long ago, when i actually met her just today as staff members, well she only stayed for day shift i stayed for night shift, so yeah i got to meet her by chance cause i reached the shop at 5.40pm when i am suppose to reach at 6pm (sorry but i am quite early when it comes to work) just something that i think i must do? not quite a tiring day it should not be since it is a slacking job X.X well ok i'm signing off now got to get ready for school tmr!

All i ever wanted is a person who could change me the way i am now, i really am tired and i need someone to support me... not physically but mentally.... the way i am now... i ain't satisfied... i'm not happy at all.... not happy with the way my life is now....

2011-05-04T00:11:00.002+08:00

First day ever working alone at pitstop, must say i am making good prograss! XD i am able to take orders and able to talk to customers on phone etc etc, this job suits me quite well i MIGHT be considering opening a cafe in the future be my own boss XD like those cafe in anime where students would gather up and slack etc etc chil out, maybe thats what i am born for i see a glimmer of light now of what my future is to become =) also first time i worked till 11pm just reached home =w= at least its not as tired as other jobs, considering that the boss let me use laptop during my free time is already a good boss, well ok signing off now gottta work tomorrow as well! need my rest!!!

2011-05-02T22:34:00.002+08:00

okay so tested out my beats headset today while going out, now i know why it cost such a huge amount of money, its long lasting and it is like a 'moving cinema' what you hear in the cinema is like being converted into this headset the bass, everything is extremely well done! i can tell this confidently that the 500 is damn worth it for this headset! apart from that i am gonna go work tomorrow again @.@ work work, to get money, well at least there is free food! =p well ok gonna end here now nothing much to post! nighty!

just wanted to talk to you.... i didnt want to hide how i feel anymore..... i am tired of not letting someone know how i feel... especially the ones i keep close... i lost friends..... and i did most of the things to get your attention... i just want things to get better i am tired of being a stranger... i want things to be the way they were.... i am tired of being alone....

2011-05-01T12:45:00.001+08:00

romanji:

Ano hajimari no hi tsuyogatteta
Osanai deai ni senobi o shite ita

Onaji kaze o uke waraiatta
Aa furikaereba natsukashii hibi

Sono ashioto ga mimi ni nokoru
Kimi no koe wa doko ni ite mo todoku hora

Mou hitori ja nai kage futatsu
Takaku tooku hibiku shirabe daiji ni daite

Hagukunda omoi o kotoba ni kaeyou
Doko made mo atataka na te wo tsunaide
Kimi to no jikan
Kizamitsuzukeru

Doko made kita ka to kimi wa kiita
Tsukareta to kikeba warai kubi o furu

Soshite mata aruku kata o narabe
Sou me no mae ni wa ironaki daichi

Jamasuru mono wa doko ni mo nai
Ashi o soroe mae e susumu mayowazu ni

Tashika na kimochi kaze no naka
Tojita hitomi ni katachinaki kimi o kanjite

Tomaranai omoi ga ashiato nokoshi
Ima koko ni futari no kiseki umareru

Hagukunda omoi o kotoba ni kaete
Itsu made mo atataka na te o tsunaide
Kimi to no mirai
Kataritsuzukeru

english sub:

On that day of the beginning, I pretended to be strong
I stood on tiptoes for the childish meeting

We felt the same wind and laughed together
Ah, if I look back, there are the nostalgic days

The sound of your footsteps remains in my ears
No matter where your voice is, it’ll reach me, look

I’m not alone anymore, there are two shadows
I carefully embrace the tune that echoes high and far

I’ll change my nurtured thoughts into words
I’ll hold your warm hand endlessly
And keep passing
The time with you

You asked, “Where did you get to?”
If you ask, “Are you tired?” I’ll laugh and shake my head

Then we’ll walk again, with our shoulders aligned
That’s right, in front of our eyes, there’s a colorless earth

Interferers don’t exist anywhere
We’ll pick up our feet and advance forward, unhesitatingly

With my definite feelings, within the wind
I feel the shapeless you in my closed eyes

My unstopping thoughts leave behind footprints
Now, our tracks are born here

I’ll change my nurtured thoughts into words
Hold your warm hand forever
And keep talking about
The future with you

love this song XD for those who wanna know why watch clannad! hehe

2011-04-30T23:24:00.002+08:00

^.^ officially started working at pitstop(that's the name of the shop that i am working in) well from what i heard it has only 1 outlet in singapore and well its at clark quey, a nice place to chill out when you are stressed or feel that there is nothing or no where else to go, feel free to come got a variety and unqiue kind of board games,also i learnt alot XD thanks to yang zi especially milk tea, coffee espresso! haha now i need to learn finger food (seaweed chicken, french fries etc etc) well after that i am good to go, i can have my own time slot for my own and just slack there, more like a friends place to chill out and talk to, first kind of job i ever enjoy doing slackable and nice to do! XD also! thanks mom! thanks alot for giving me the money to buy my beats headset! i will treasure it with my life! this very gift that you give me for my whole 19 years! i love you mom!XD thanks for the beats headset mom!!!!

2011-04-29T23:41:00.002+08:00

HELL YEAH!!!! dreamy theathre 2nd screen shots are out!! and it will arrive and be available for download this summer *excited* been waiting for a long time man!! so attracted to her songs XD well tomorrow im gonna go work first day working there and i know i am gonna enjoy it hehe, alright i shall not post much maybe after tmr after my work tee!!!!! nights ! also gonna buy my headset tmr my dream headset!!!

Tomoya's Confession

2011-04-28T22:14:00.002+08:00

nice confession tomoya! that's what i wanna say as well! this is a show that is suitable for people who want to know what true friendship is like and people who believe in romance =D Clannad is the first season Clannad After Story is the 2nd season!

2011-04-28T20:21:00.002+08:00

well i got the job =D today was my interview and it passed *happy* well i know i will love this job heh, mainly is because its a chill out area when i am sorta like know what to do, i willl have my own working time meaning the whole area i am the only staff there XD i could bring my laptop there etc etc maybe even listen to mp3 and practice playing air piano ahahahaha since no one will be there to see, mmmm can't wait anw its the enthusiasm that will keep me working this job hehe,will try not to let the boss down,just hope that this job won't get in ym way when i am revising for my exams, well ok im gonna sign off now =p happy!!!! saturday im gonna start learning how to operate cash register etc etc even making milk tea on my own XDXD anyone wanna try? hehe well ok signing off! ja na!

2011-04-27T18:33:00.002+08:00

having thoughts of quiting my module now and just go NS.... mainly is because of the lecturer, who doesn't even care if anyone is unsure or not, just continue screw that seriously,i might not be able to get 4 pointer GPA now i dont think 3.5 is even possible.... if this keeps up... if i fail i will just quit this year and after my NS is done i will just restart the higher nitec again sigh seriously a fucked up lecturer both of it! i'd rather stay at home and read if attendence wasn't counted and i won't be kicked out, that's one thing and the other? feeling left out.... its like after making new friends, old friends are like friends which are like substitude... that's the honest truth of how i felt and i know you felt it too... the gap in our friendship we were once like so close and now it seems like hi bye friends, i can't blame you anyways and i can't i just hope the best for you and i will still talk to you but not like before... i would try and just stay here and when you need me you know where you may find me, many things are now making my mind burst.... like for instance that BASTARD who i hate the most who is a 3rd party and someone who like to force things seprated me and my ex is directly opposite my class every monday haha wonder what i will do, i hope he won't do shit if he does i won't go easy on him now that i know he's there.

having to wake up and realise you forgot what you dreamt last night is something that i wanna get rid of.... but its been staying with me ever since i was like primary 6 till now i always forgot what i dreamt about but yesterday's is a lil different, i feel like it was something important... sigh well no time to think got things to worry about esp my ITE module now ...

2011-04-26T23:39:00.003+08:00

back from clark quey, my future working place a small board game cafe XD its wonderful there i am so gonna work there, best thing about there? memories will be kept there as photos and people will be able to see it, numerous games in there gotta say, its fun there, flexible working hours hmmm should ask some of my friends to go there as well maybe after i start working there alone mmmmm now i know why kenny like working there XD thursday interview i am so excited!!!!!!
BOARD GAME BOARD GAME!!!!!nvr knew it would be this fun ahahaha esp the stackers!!!!

2011-04-25T19:18:00.002+08:00

well sorry about not posting last night didnt get a chance since my dad suddenly bought a screen home and got to configure it all night -.- but still thank him for buying (though i clearly didnt ask him to buy), well got to get used to new screen now. still this house seems like it has almost everything that will keep me occupied maybe physically but mentally this is just a house for me to sleep in, i no longer feel warmth in here,apart from all this i might actually get a chance to play piano soon! REAL SOON!!! i wanna learn how to play and someday able to play a song that i wanted so long ago! XD well im gonna sign off from here nothing much happened today either just normal school stuffs

2011-04-24T10:48:00.002+08:00

mmmm 1 more week to go.... till than i have to bare with my shitty ear piece!asked people for opinion white or red and turns out 100% of my friends said that too bad there isnt a blue headset or it might actually fit me,so the closest i could get was white 100% voted white is more suitable for me and my personalities.

ah well! sunday... normally i would just stay at home and find some books online to read ugh... but cousins askin me out to eat along with em with aunt well since most of my cousins are attending NS and won't be out until 2 years are up, might as well go and have one memorable day eating and playing together today eh?

well i will post more tonight i hope after eating with cousins and my aunt, cya guys!

Melt Miku Hatsune live HD with English sub

2011-04-23T13:10:00.000+08:00

and thats why girls are hard to understand like you miku XD

World is mine Miku Hatsune live HD with English sub

2011-04-23T13:03:00.000+08:00

=w= *nose bleed* damn!

Strobe Nights Miku Hatsune live HD with English sub

2011-04-23T12:56:00.000+08:00

from Y to Y Miku Hatsune live HD with English sub

2011-04-23T12:40:00.000+08:00

sigh i never get tired of this song and it reflects so much about me -.-

Promise Rin&Miku Hatsune live HD with English sub

2011-04-23T12:32:00.000+08:00

Uraomote lovers Miku Hatsune live HD with English sub

2011-04-23T12:28:00.000+08:00

2011-04-22T21:00:00.002+08:00

well okay stayed over at cousin's place was fun there always having to watch ghost show before sleeping haha i could get use to that, school was as usual, still don't get what the lecturer is sayin, wanna know but her way of teaching is really bad i doubt i could get 4 pointer this year but well i made up my mind of studying myself, if i do not know i will ask her instead.

had barbeque today with my family was fun, having to gather and see everyone together, won't be having that for a long time now since everyone is busy and i can see that ah ma's health is worsen but all we could do is just be there for her for the good and the worse.

i had my confession given to that special girl of mine, i want your answer soon... i am worried... that i won't be able to live to hear that answer... your answer will determine, if i could move on or not... if i would be in a relationship ever again... thinking alot lately.... like wasnt a wish of her's to see me move on? wasn't her wish to get to be with someone else she knew and told me she had a crush on? now u got it all, so why are you still back here? i moved on as you wanted so what is it you want? sigh.... i am leaving the past behind me now, i am moving on.... for good and bad i am prepared....

2011-04-20T23:25:00.002+08:00

well u showed signs that ur worried whenever i dont go home early, when i see your name on my phone i was happy, wondering will you finally answer to my question i asked you last night, when i heard your voice i felt really really happy and nervous what willl be your answer, in the end you just asked how i was doing and where i was at a nervous and worried voice, i am happy at the same time curious, i meant yeah u called to see where i was and why didnt i go home after so late, i am starting to develop more and more feelings for you.... i just hope that i get the chance to prove it to you.... one chance is all i need

2011-04-19T17:02:00.001+08:00

i'm gonna confess to you soon.... i don't wanna lose you not anymore.... please trust me and i would make you the happiest girl there ever is... i just hope i wonn't be late.... ur only the person i trust the most.... the person who understood me so far the most..... i just wish that i have the chance to make you my girl... i may not be your first guy, but i would wish that i can be your last......

2011-04-15T22:41:00.002+08:00

u'r always on my mind.... how long will it take for you to realise it.... how long more must i wait? i have been waiting and waiting... whenever i see you with someone else.... it makes me think that i can do much better and make you happier... i known you since at a very young age.... fate made me know you... for so long.... how long more will it take for you to realise it.... to realise that i am waiting for you.... whenever i hear your voice and whenever i see you on my incoming call i feel bloody happy and i feel that i get to speak to you again, but maybe to you on your side i am just another guy who you would normally talk to.... how i wish that one day you would also come to me and say that you love me too... instead of me just hiding....

2011-04-15T14:15:00.002+08:00

alright operation date is set at june 1st, start of holiday -.- thanks alot ah taking up my holidays zzzzz, so yeah so much things to take precautions but i did get a guranteee from doc saying after remove it wont grow anymore but of course it will leave a scar there, well i rather leave a scar there than let it grow again its annoying, so with that done, my mom told me to try working for a week she said i want to see how long you can last working so yeah i got her permission to study during day and work at night, she will be buying headset for me thanks mom love you lots i promise i will do well for my exams! thanks =D well gonna post more tonight i think? going out soon again!

2011-04-14T13:34:00.003+08:00

okay? so mom refused to let me work even though the time for the work is flexible i am able to work from 6pm till 11pm for weekdays and whole day for weekends, planning ton save up for my piano class and my beat headset, but when i told my mom about it, she said don't do it, i mean i wanna get things my own way i dun wanna make them in such a difficult situation where they always pay for what i want, they took care of me alot already, but mom insisted that i don't work and she would buy for me the headset and the piano class,i don't know about that... cause i truly love my mom i don't wish to make her think i am a free loader and always using her hard earned cash for my own, shall see than... maybe i will pay her back once i earn that amount back, well i am off to the hospital now to see my sister, tomorrow will be my turn to set an operation date for myself... sigh what an unlucky year to let it grow back...

2011-04-11T16:17:00.002+08:00

first day of school was soso got to meet more people and some familliar faces, though its a start of a new fresh term i feel like this term is kinda 'empty'maybe its because nixon and mj are gone, and abbas's status of going into ITE is uncomfirmed well i just hope he can get in, orientation im not gonna lie its was total bullshit we are not primary nor secondary kids anymore -.- should do something like more mature rather than childish acts,sigh well gonna try my best and get into poly, no more slacking... its a promise i made for myself a promise i made for my friends, im gonna build up courage too so that one day i can finally confess to her.... i'm sorry i hurt many victims i can't do anything to mend it but i will just disappear from your lives.... sorry to my 2 ex.... i won't look you up, i won't bother you guys and i hope you 2 will find a better guy.... at least better than a worthless piece of meat bag like me, good luck and sorry...

2011-04-10T13:47:00.003+08:00

sigh.... first week of school and i'm gonna spend it in the hospital -.- 2 times in a row the stupid doc didnt clean my ear resulting for the lump in my ear to grow back...... guess i will need to stay in the hospital and operate it by this month, doesnt matter anyways first week of school is always about introduction and nothing else, its irritating for it to grow back, when you are eatting and feel a sharp pain before you know it, your ear is bleeding geez thanks doc, well no point complaining happy or sad i still gotta operate my ear, treat it as i'm unlucky than,gotta study hard as well gonna aim for poly hopefully uni too, well poly is a must anw argh ear is acting up again >.< im gonna sign off now.....

Sum 41 - With Me

2011-04-06T16:24:00.000+08:00

2011-04-04T22:28:00.002+08:00

yesterday was one of the days that i wish to keep for the rest of my life, not because of what happened but because of what a special someone said, of course i wouldn't show it cause i wouldn't wanna be the bad person, started off and went to doby ghaut that day, we met at compass and headed to doby ghaut,everything was normal and i always love the way when she talks and when she smiles totally brightens up my day,and went to watch the movie 'hop' with her, not a bad show i would say, at least it was funny, after the show went to arcade and play, had alot of fun with her, lots to talk about and i can go all out to her, talking about almost anything, (no pervertic stuffs>.>) one thing struck my head when i was eatting with her, i recalled seeing alot of photos with her and her boyfriend, so i just had to ask, cause she and her boyfriend is already like 1 or 2 years together, i teased her saying 'one day when you 2 married that day remember to invite me ah' she replied 'nah , i'm not gonna marry him, just too early' of course as her 'brother' i asked why etc etc but i am just glad she said no ause that would mean i still would get a chance if she breaks up, of course i wouldnt be the third party either, i will just wait i just wanna wait until shes ready for me... a text she wrote for me really made my day even if it was a bad one,
'Kor, thanks for everything today, enjoyed my day been so long since i last laughed like that, and i am glad that you are able to find your ear piece for your phone' she went crazy all over just to find an ear piece for me even when i said give up its ok, haha i really hope one day i can walk up to her and confess...i just hope that it isnt too late.... i have waited ever since primary 4.... tried to give up on her but it still ain't happening its like i am glued to her.... if there is a god... if jesus you are there... please.... i wish that she would find real happiness even if she is not gonna be with me... i just wish i am the one for her.....

2011-03-30T02:20:00.002+08:00

so long since i last touched my blog haven't i? nothing much to post really, days and nights passed just sleep wake up wash up etc etc trying to go out, crop up with game stuffs -.- (which makes me wanna quit sometimes) maybe i would after school reopens, gonna aim for 3.8-4 gpa starting this term when school starts, of course i would wish that my friends will be along side with me i would be happy if the friends i knew from the 1st year, get to be with me in the same class in 2nd semester, also afew things making my mind occupied like wondering if abbas will make it to simei ITE same course with us or not, well i hope he does after all he made a huge change in my life, not just him the 5 more friends i knew throughout these 2 years thanks guys! lets hope that none of us would ever seprate ever again.... none of us maybe in distance but not in the heart =D

Hatsune Miku - "1/6" English Subbed

2011-03-30T01:32:00.000+08:00

2011-03-18T23:15:00.003+08:00

i hate it whenever it comes to this.... the feeling i fear the most... to love someone again.... i just hope... if this is true... if this feeling is honest and sincere... this may be the last time i ever fall in love so maddly with someone again..... and now... its coming back to the person whom i met so long ago.... since primary school.... i just hope that in the end.... both parties would be happy..... my feelings are abit confused right now.... to love you to wait for you or not.... i need to talk to someone..... anyone out there.... please.... come to my aid

2011-03-14T21:30:00.002+08:00

2 days 1 night at a hotel near universal studio was A-W-E-S-O-M-E!!!!! seriously with so many rides finally i open i feel that its worth the money! of course there are some things in there which are a joke -.- 10.50 for a plate of chicken rice is like robbing a granny with a shotgun! but overall yeah a memorable event! especially the 2 new rollaer coaster rides, i reccomand the red one for challangers~ hehe feel the pressure when it goes down down down! well for starters i would ask you guys to seat on the blue roller coaster, at least it isnt so scary but still FUN! the return of the mummy ride was scary at first but damn they really made it so real! haha if i had a choice i would want to bring my friends there to experience it one day, well i will upload the photos soon hehe well ok shall sign off here !

2011-03-11T01:01:00.002+08:00

life is so.... unpredictable.... one momment you are happy go lucky and the next you faill into despair and lost.... you are really one person i can't understand.... i tried to befriend with you, help you in anyway i can, even if i am awfully tired.... even if i am superbly bored to help you, i will still do it.... but with that attitude you'r givin me... it just makes me feel like giving up on this friendship....

2011-03-10T01:10:00.002+08:00

how many times must i tell you... you aren't for me and you never will, the me you knew who always talked to you who always laughed along with you is just the ocver, you said you knew me, just how well do you know me?! do you know how much pain i went through just to forget love? or how much i weeped until i sleep? or how about how much time i spent just to cover the side which feels lonely and unwanted?! DO YOU?! THERE IS SO MUCH PLACE FOR YOU TO GO NEW PEOPLE TO MEET,i am just a lowly cyber person you met, who talks to you whenever you need me to be, someone who wishes nothing more to have friends, i lost more than i made, i even got to suffer what other people won't understand.... so just let me go.... u won't be with me and u never will, face that fact, if i were to be single my whole life..... than..... so be it, i don't need another partner who doesnt know how i feel or what i went through.... the me you 'saw' is just an illusion from the real one... no one will ever step into the place where the real me will be no one will.....

Tomoya and Tomoyo get back together

2011-03-09T12:44:00.000+08:00

alternate ending, clannad (tomoyo chapter) sweet ending after breaking up for 8 mths

Tomoya ask Nagisa out

2011-03-09T12:36:00.000+08:00

my favourite scene for season 1 nagisa!!!!!

初音ミク - From Y to Y PV

2011-03-08T15:58:00.000+08:00

finally pv is out

Part of the Pride by Kevin Richardson the Lion Whisperer

2011-03-06T12:00:00.000+08:00

Hatsune Miku - Hatsune Miku's Head Exercises (初音ミクの　あたまのたいそう)

2011-03-03T13:46:00.000+08:00

XDXDXD *neck breaks* woah!!! my neck!!!!!!

Real Life Portal Gun

2011-03-02T16:03:00.000+08:00

Aimbot

2011-03-02T15:57:00.000+08:00

Time Crisis - Ft. Andy Whitfield

2011-03-02T15:56:00.000+08:00

Man vs. Wild- Horned Beetle

2011-03-01T18:03:00.000+08:00

LOL for a momment if i dont see this and hear the sound it sounds like hes eating potato chips

Man vs. Wild - Eating Giant Larva

2011-03-01T17:56:00.000+08:00

International Saimoe League 2011 PV

2011-03-01T11:27:00.000+08:00

Lee Seung Gi - Difficult Words to Say MV (Eng subs)

2011-02-27T18:37:00.000+08:00

2011-02-21T11:44:00.002+08:00

every weekdays are the same... opening my eyes looking at the ceiling and my 4 walled room, everything in place, opening my door with messy hair, washing up at washroom and brush teeth, and before i know it, i am alone again at home, wonder where my mother always go, maybe shes got work too, brother with poly and dad with work as well, hmmmmm really wish for a companion so i wont be that alone, hope my dad or mom had a thought of it to have a pet, after all my dad once had a hamster =p can tell that he loves hamster from the way he acts, after work coming back home he would go to the cage and just bring it out XD but well snow is dead, hope that hes at a better place now, great companioon for afew years, nothing much to post this morning well if i get to post tonight i will so bye bye!~

RED ZONE (Full Mix)

2011-02-19T21:36:00.000+08:00

2011-02-18T01:05:00.003+08:00

finally graduated from nitec today, will miss my lecturer for sure, well hope that one day i might be able to see him as a friend, after all he is one unique lecturer, well got my result slip, and i am quite happy with it, so is my dad, nothing much to post i am glad i went to the graduation ceremony, took a photo and some things from school, and also treated my 6 friends to seoul garden =p well hope they enjoyed that meal, laughed so hard its been awhile since i laughed that hard gotta thank abbas for that well ok off i go to bed than nighty!

[ Hatsune Miku ] "VOiCE" english & romaji

2011-02-18T01:05:00.000+08:00

Just Be Friends (Music Box, Off-Vocal) English Sub - New: MP3! :D

2011-02-18T01:02:00.000+08:00

this piano music box piece is one of the best!

2011-02-14T17:53:00.004+08:00

birthday finally over and today's valentines day, don't really give a damn about it, to all couples out there last long while you can enjoy the momments before it becomes a memory, those who are single hope you will find someone suitable to be in your life, to be honest i just feel like sleeping the whole day, wake me up when v'tines day is over, PERFECT day to see couples confess and be together as well as a day for 'Tired of being alone, sick of being single.'

so while the day still is on going, i will be asleep not caring about the things around me,'She will be the one that fills your heart.She will be the one that kills your heart.' 'you suffer, you will learn to grow and accept reality', 'hate is the only way to let go of a particular person and to forget' , 'forever is only a mere word created which isn't suppose to exist' these sentence how i wished they were false how i wished i could change it, but in the end i changed nothing all of it is true, i wanted to show people around me that i can handle my problems my own, i want to believe forever and ever is true but reality made me realise i was a fool to think that way, so what if its valentines? irritating uncles of mine asking, where is your girl? when you gonna introduce us to your girl? i just said i dont have any, sucks to be the me now

anw enough of this, thanks everyone for the wishes yesterday, as well as the presents, i wasnt expecting any presents really nor did i expected a party, thanks alot, gw and clement too bought smth so ex for me, appreciate it and i didnt thought u guys would bought it haha made me really happy too! kayneth thanks too for the figma XD well gonna end here now thanks guys!

2011-02-10T00:46:00.002+08:00

so fast and its day 10 of february now, didnt notice how fast time passed, at least now i know where i am standing at, i won't see a miracle nor will i get a wish i just hope that somehow things will get better, in reality a person with mild stroke can never be cured, we can only be there for that person as far as possible, as long as that person lives, till that one day this particular person perish from this world, memories will be left behind, for all this i thank you, you took care of lots of us in the family, made so many of us laugh and also taught us the path to the right way, i know that living with this sickness is frightening.... today you remember all of us, maybe tomorrow one of us is going to disappear from your mind, but no matter what, all of us are always united as one.... from the bottom of my heart i hope that you may find a place in your heart that we may gather together again even when your gone.....

2011-02-07T22:30:00.000+08:00

I Don't Enjoy Hurting Girl's Feeling. Why? Because I Gain No Advantage And Respect Over It. There Are Plenty More Ways To Solve A Problem With Your Other Party, And Violence Is Not The Answer. Hurting Her Would Only Make You Look Like An Arsehole. Not Only That, It Would Scar Her In Life. Girl's Forgive, But They Never Forget....

【Nico Nico Chorus】 Love is War 【7 People's Chorus】

2011-02-07T13:56:00.000+08:00

VOCALOID - From Y to Y [Live Concert Realtime Hologram]

2011-02-06T23:04:00.000+08:00

2011-02-02T21:26:00.003+08:00

lulululu~~~
back from a visit to my granny's house as lively as ever, ate along with my 2 sis~ been awhile since i ate so full as a family with ym parents as well, so full now~~~ well now i found a spark happiness whenever i can see my 2 sis~ they can be there to talk to, though they can't understand my feelings but just by seeing them talk and always playing with them seems to calm me down, thanks! =D

seems like there is no need to look for someone to understand you, since the you currently knows best how you feel, talking to someone and just forget about it would be the best solution to calm you down but it takes more to end it, so i will just take it slow step by step, OH! yeah my dad is still the same even after getting his car back but i am glad he is happy again, though he spent so much on the car i am glad it turned out to be looking cool at the end i thought he bought a skyline GTR at first glance haha but it just turned out to be civics~ well will update more after tomorrow's lunar new year!

Owl City - "Fireflies" (Parody-Ikea)

2011-02-02T18:09:00.000+08:00

【Miku, Len】 Your World, My World - English/Romaji + MP3

2011-02-02T11:57:00.000+08:00

【Miku, Gumi】Our Star - English/Romaji + MP3

2011-02-02T11:44:00.000+08:00

our star-miku & gumi

2011-02-01T23:57:00.003+08:00

well for this year i have a new motivation! gonna learn piano! one day when i am confident enough i'm gonna post it on my blog! i swear i am gonna learn it!!! =D i just got so motivated whenever i see people play piano covering the songs i like! well partly is because i don't want to spend my time alone at home since my brother will be going NS this year anytime soon, mom and dad gotta work so i would be at home most of the time, guess having a pet is out of the question, mom wouldn't want to make herself more busy having a pet, but i would have one after i get my own house, having a companion isn't a bad idea after all, only thing is the monthly injecting thingy, food, medical fee if it is injured or sick and most of all the responsibility to own one.... hmmmm maybe..... well what matter now is that im just gonna excel in my career course now, and having a music class which is coming soon will make me even more occupied, having said that, i hope i get to play my very own piece of piano music soon!

2011-01-30T15:38:00.003+08:00

[Hope-Miku]

[Last Night Good Night-Miku]

[Disappearence of Hatsune Miku- Miku]

2011-01-30T00:27:00.001+08:00

live everyday like it will be your last is what i will learn to do... parents often ask me to find a work which i am trying to, grandma kept on asking , have you found a girlfriend? and most people would ask do you have a target on valentines day? what common questions and my answer is~ i dont give a damn but for work yeah i would look for one if 1 opportunity comes up to me, had a hard thought, i once had a thought of becoming a chief or bakery cause i love baking and cooking *looks at my mom* =p well apart from that i had my reasons for not picking that, cause i was afraid that people would look down on me, turns out that i have friends who are adults and working in bakery and also males, hmm maybe i did take the wrong course but i can't turn back now.... maybe after my poly i will be taking bakery.... hmm i don't know about that....

2011-01-29T01:49:00.002+08:00

new year is going to start soon in a week's time and of course after that would be valentines day~~ hmmm thinking of buying something for myself maybe a new wallet >.> hmm i dont really know could use a new cap as well old ones are getting into my cupboard , or maybe some new figurine~ well it all depends anw, can't wait for 15th february that would be the day that my higher nitec course results being released i really hope! that i get into wireless technology! cause its what i am learning up until now... hope for the best! well if i am unable to get into it i will surely be sad but nevertheless i gotta learn to learn new things too~ hmmm well think im gonna stop here, thanks bloggy for always being there for me to hear out all of my emotions~ XD

2011-01-27T00:24:00.002+08:00

so much things happening >.<

gotta learn and sleep early now, always sleeping after 12am is bad ain't it? well it is, went out with mei yesterday, hmmm shes as cheerful as ever, asking me what i wish for my present, hmmm nothing in particular if i needed something i would save up to buy it, i don't wanna rely on my friends,family and loved ones too much, asking me where i wanna celebrate, to be honest i don't really wish to celebrate my birthday this year either since my 18th passed without celebrating too, find no meaning to it, its just a day which i was born, if i do really have to get a wish i would want to know why the world is build this way, a world where i wish to live is where there is no sadness or agony or anger....... sure this emotions are important..... and thats why i am having lesser and lesser friends.... things i want to protect people i want to keep in my life and protect are getting lesser and lesser, well for all i know reality is cruel, no one would come and pick you up when you fall no one ever will, there is no kind people in reality only illusions if there is one... than that one would be the person i would want to keep in my life....

sorry..... i am still unable to accept you, after what happened i just need a break, don't bother waiting cause there is no meaning in it, you are someone great.... you know who you are.... maybe to you i am someone special, if you knew i once hurt my partner , maybe you will be able to take it in and accept it , but i can't and i see no meaning to us being together i am being harsh here, yes i am but i am doing this because i want you to move on, i am not going to be yours not now not ever, we can only be friends, cause i can't accept a girl who likes me for who i am through cyber, who knows? i maybe faking my personality, i might end up hurting you too, there is another guy you once talked to me about isn't it? i am sure you just mistaken admire to love, chase after him alright? he's one lucky guy to have you, you cook, you understand his thoughts, you know how he feels and what he likes and not.... you even know what he does for hobby and know his childhood life isn't that enough? maybe he has feelings for you, don't be like me... i waited for a particular girl too last time before i even had my 1st ex waited too long and ended up losing her so chase after him before everything ends, i will cheer on for you girl =)

hmmm one more last thing, thanks mei for accompanying me though i know you wont be reading this, just wanna thank you for being honest to me, after that day over at my house my dad and mom thought you were my girl, LOL, after i sent you home( on the request of my dad) i got home and everything was ok, till the day after my mom came to me 'gin, that girl yesterday who came over, she already got a boyfriend? you know? i saw her together with him' *me giving a awkward look* 'errrr so? shes just a friend of mine' and she replied 'oh!! me and your dad thought that she was your girlfriend' and i gave the >.> face , though i do admit i used to like you last time, but its over now,may you and your boyfriend have a happily ever after ending, keep on going and you will always have me as your brother who will help you whenever you need!

「初音ミクの消失（LONG VERSION）」を弾いてみた【ピアノ】 +MP3

2011-01-25T16:19:00.000+08:00

「ロミオとシンデレラ」 "Romeo and Cinderella" English ver.

2011-01-25T15:48:00.000+08:00

i like this lyrics better~~

Hatsune Miku Project Diva 2nd - Romeo and cinderella Extreme

2011-01-25T15:12:00.000+08:00

Psp Version

In Searching For An Answer...

Ai Kotoba [Shōnen-T][fanmade cover][english sub]

｢Moetron-Subs｣ Hatsune Miku - "When the First Love Ends" (English Subs)

初音ミク - From Y to Y PV

By2 我知道MV大首播(清晰版)

Tank - Ru Guo Wo Bian Cheng Hui Yi

Clannad - Nagisa Warm Piano Version

Tomoya's Proposal to Nagisa - Clannad ~After Story~ HQ

Clannad ~After Story~ Tomoya apologizes *Most dramatic scene in anime!* HQ

Tomoya's Confession

Melt Miku Hatsune live HD with English sub

World is mine Miku Hatsune live HD with English sub

Strobe Nights Miku Hatsune live HD with English sub

from Y to Y Miku Hatsune live HD with English sub

Promise Rin&Miku Hatsune live HD with English sub

Uraomote lovers Miku Hatsune live HD with English sub

Sum 41 - With Me

Hatsune Miku - "1/6" English Subbed

Tomoya and Tomoyo get back together

Tomoya ask Nagisa out

初音ミク - From Y to Y PV

Part of the Pride by Kevin Richardson the Lion Whisperer

Hatsune Miku - Hatsune Miku's Head Exercises (初音ミクの あたまのたいそう)

Real Life Portal Gun

Aimbot

Time Crisis - Ft. Andy Whitfield

Man vs. Wild- Horned Beetle

Man vs. Wild - Eating Giant Larva

International Saimoe League 2011 PV

Lee Seung Gi - Difficult Words to Say MV (Eng subs)

RED ZONE (Full Mix)

[ Hatsune Miku ] "VOiCE" english & romaji

Just Be Friends (Music Box, Off-Vocal) English Sub - New: MP3! :D

【Nico Nico Chorus】 Love is War 【7 People's Chorus】

VOCALOID - From Y to Y [Live Concert Realtime Hologram]

Owl City - "Fireflies" (Parody-Ikea)

【Miku, Len】 Your World, My World - English/Romaji + MP3

【Miku, Gumi】Our Star - English/Romaji + MP3

「初音ミクの消失（LONG VERSION）」を弾いてみた【ピアノ】 +MP3

「ロミオとシンデレラ」 "Romeo and Cinderella" English ver.

Hatsune Miku Project Diva 2nd - Romeo and cinderella Extreme

Clannad ~After Story~ Tomoya apologizes Most dramatic scene in anime! HQ

Hatsune Miku - Hatsune Miku's Head Exercises (初音ミクの　あたまのたいそう)